Denver and our Anniversary!

When Brett and I got home Friday evening I told him I had an early anniversary gift for him and handed him a home made card I made with the tickets inside.

At first he seemed really confused and just stared at them forever then looked up and at me and said "umm, what are these babe?" I went on to tell him that we were going to Denver for the weekend to see his Bucs play the Broncos. I think he was in shock for a bit and then came the excitement.

This was our first road trip together and I must say it wasn't too bad. We hooked up the navigation system and off we went. It was about a 7 hour drive with all the stops we made, one being a stop at Taco Time to get his dad 2 dozen meat burritos. Yup, that's right... I guess there isn't a Taco Time in Denver and his dad loves the meat burritos from there so we stopped in Green River and picked up 2 dozen per his request. :)

Once we got into town we took his dad his burritos, obviously and joined him, his wife and her daughter for dinner at a hole in the wall steak place that actually ended up being pretty good, I was impressed. Then it was off to bed since GAME DAY was the following day.

When we woke up Brett insisted I go buy a red shirt since I forgot my Bucs t-shirt (yes, I know a Dallas fan owning a Bucs shirt..crazy isn't it). Once we got to the the stadium it was unreal. It truly is an experience of a lifetime. The energy was INSANE. We tailgated for awhile and then made our way through the crowds to the field.

Here are some pictures of Brett and I and his Dad outside Invescofield.

The second we stepped into the stadium Brett was in some sort of trance. For the first 15 minutes of being in our seat he just sat, stared and would throw in a "wow" every once in a while. I let him sit and enjoy his excitement while I melted, it was too damn hot for this pregnant lady! I eventually said screw the red shirt and sat in my white tank with my shoes off and jeans rolled up to my knees... hawt I know!

Sadly, Bretts Bucs lost 13-16 :( he seems to think that means we will need to make another trip to see them win some time soon. To me this means we should just go see the Cowboys since I know they wouldn't disappoint me! :)

That evening we met up with my little brother, his girlfriend Micaela and my nephew Cruz. I haven't seen my brother in over a year and this was the first time meeting Cruz. It was so great to see my little brat. Cruz was too cute to belong to my brother ;) he was such a blast. I didn't even want to eat dinner I just wanted to play with him all night. I am so glad I finally got to meet him and I plan on being in his life alot more than I have been, as well as my brother.

Here are some pictures of the happy family.

Isn't he such a cutie?

The next day we spent a few more hours in Denver. Went to our favorite Chai/Bagel place out there, walked around the mall and headed out. The drive was alot harder back because we left later and had to drive in the dark. Just because it was hard sure in heck doesn't mean it was boring. Have you ever heard two adults sing nursery rhymes... not to children but themselves? Well you would have had a hoot in the car with us, we sang every single one as well as played "I spy" for a good hour or two. It felt good to just goof off and be with eachother. That honestly was the best car ride of my life.

The next day Tuesday October 7th was our 1 year anniversary. Yay for us! We exchanged gifts. I got him a new pen for work with his name ingraved in it as well as a awesome business card holder. I got the most amazing bracelet ever. Here is the stock photo of it. There is two of my favorite pictures of Brett and I in the picture slots as well as our most recent u/s picture and an empty slot to put a picture of Chaz when he arrives. The stones in my bracelet are a diamond and an aquamarine (Bretts and Chazs birthstones) It is amazing! We then went to a family fun center near by and played some mini golf and arcade games. That night we went to Olive Garden and ate way too much food and went home and wrote each other letters about the last year. All in all it was a great anniversary and I couldn't imagine spending it with anyone else. I can't wait until our 2 year!

It's a BOY!

I am a little late on this but Thursday October 2nd Brett and I found out we will be having a wonderful baby boy! Chaz Christopher is measuring right on time and looks great. At first he was being a bit shy and the Dr. thought he was a she but as soon as he heard that he opened his legs right up as if to say "no, no I am not a girl. LOOK!"

We are over the moon to have our very own little running back! Daddy doesn't refer to him as Chaz he is "my little man" instead, which I love. :) It makes it so real to know that I am growing my son inside of me rather than just an "it".

We have BIG plans for our little boy and can't wait till we get to meet him.

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Brett and I just celebrated our 1 year anniverary yesterday. I can't believe it has been a whole year already. I suprised him with a trip to Denver to see his Bucs play the Broncos. It was so much fun and I will be sure to update with more info and pictures tomorrow! :)

Motherly Instinct.

These two words have been in my head for the last three days...not going away no matter what.

A week before the appointment that we heard the horrible news that our Sweetbaby had gone to heaven I remember calling my mom in tears that I knew something was wrong with our baby. I hadn't woke up in the middle of the night to pee in 4 days, I felt great, I got this sudden burst of energy and I felt everything but pregnant. My mother, being a mother told me everything was fine and it was just my emotions. I would see my baby in a week and everything would be great.

I tried to push the thought out of my mind but it was always there in the back. I cried every night for that whole week. I had no other indication that something was wrong other than feeling great.... but I knew it. Everyone I talked to reassured me that it was nerves and everything would be fine. I even called my Dr. office and the nurse told me that I was nearly out of my 1st tri and that was most likely the reason behind me feeling so great.

I remember reading on one of the message boards a girl worrying because she was symptomless and felt great. So many women gave her a hard time and told her she should be glad she feels better and not complain that she had nothing to complain about. Told her this was going to be a long pregnancy for her and everyone around her, yada yada. I look back now and I wish I would of stood up for that girl. I was feeling the same thing but didn't have the balls to admit in fear of looking like an idiot in these "strangers" eyes.

I remember sitting in the Dr. office waiting to get called back. I had a horrible cold, I swear I used every tissue in that office lol. I did not allow myself to get excited to see this baby because I still knew deep down something was wrong. I kept telling Brett and my mom that I was preparing myself for bad news. YOU CAN NEVER EVER PREPARE FOR NEWS LIKE THAT!!!

I got called back, I stepped on the scale, I peed in a cup...all the norm. I undressed and layed on the u/s table. Kathy (my Dr.) came in and started up the u/s machine. I remember I refuse to look at the u/s screen until I heard that heartbeat. I stared up to the corner of the room. I felt Kathy move the u/s wand around, going hmm, well and then it came..... I felt her hand rest on mine and the words came soooo slow "Honey, it doesn't look good." I yelled "I knew it!" We all cried, Kathy excused her self and I layed there in my mom and Bretts arms bawling. I knew this was going to happen but I never thought it would hurt the way it did.

Kathy came back in to the room to discuss the next steps with me. Of course she asked what I meant when I said "I knew it". I explained to her how I had been feeling for the last week and her words were "Motherly instinct, mom really does know best."

Those words have been ringing in the back of my head for the last two days. Part of me wants to think it is my nerves getting to me, being that this has been the longest I have gone with seeing the babe. But the other part of me has a constant worry that something is wrong again. I don't know what it is but I pray to God that I am wrong. I laid in bed talking to God the other night, I asked him that if something was wrong with the baby then to give me a sign. Don't let it come down to having no visual signs of a loss only to see a motionless screen. I begged him that if it had to be a loss to let me know now. I have yet to have any signs so 1)God, knows I will do my job as a mother and carry this baby full term or 2) God isn't listening to me.

Please say a little prayer that this babe is ok and his/her momma is just a crazy worry wort. Please pray that I have no motherly instinct what so ever and that I am wrong about this feeling. Please pray on Thursday that my babe is growing strong.

10 and 14 week belly pics!

I am a total blog slacker but here are some belly pictures! Yay.

^10 weeks

^14 weeks

I am finally starting to round out a bit rather than just looking like I have had one too many donuts! :)

I promise to update soon with a bit more info of everything going on!

::sigh of relief::

Our 12w3d week appointment was today and we have ten little finger, ten little toes and a nice strong heartbeat. Yay!

I promised Brett and mostly myself that after this appointment I would stop being such a worry wart and enjoy this pregnancy. I have yet to fully embrace this pregnancy and this sweet joy growing inside of me but today put alot of worries I had to rest.

The appointment:

Today was my first sono taken from the outside of my belly rather than internally. We didn't get a great view and could barely hear/see the heartbeat. Kathy (my wonderful Dr.) said that there was no way she was letting me leave with even a bit of doubt so we decided to do an internal. Sure enough there was a strong heartbeat of 161 bpm ::sigh of relief:: I must say we have a wiggly one... as well as stubborn (like his/her daddy) this baby didn't want us to see it for anything. We got some GREAT shots though.

The Dr. tried to guess the sex but she said it was a bit to early, I figured so. We will be finding out at our next appointment on October 2nd though, that is if the babe is being cooperative. Kathy did get a shot of what would be a great "money shot" if the sex was noticable. Brett has been studying the pic since we left and keeps saying "I think I see two testicles" haha..... wishful thinking at it's best.

Thank you for everyones support up until this point! I really need the encouraging word and vibes. :) Yay for Little B growing away.

Well it's really in there!

We had our first prenatal appointment for this pregnancy yesterday. I was so nervous going in there! Especially because I had a dream the night before that I got there, had an ultra sound and they told me that there was no baby.

The nurse and Kathy (my Dr.) were both so excited to see me back again so soon. We did an internal ultrasound and sure enough there is a gestation sac in there, no yolk sac yet but that is most likely because I was exactly 5 weeks and the yolk sac starts developing during the 5th week. She said everything looks great! She also told me she would like to see me every two to three weeks rather than four to five until I am out of my 1st trimester. This way she can keep a close eye on everything and also to give me a sense of relief. I am so happy about this. I am glad she is so concerned with me and being so proactive about it.

I got another wonderful pregnancy care package. This time it included even more goodies than the first time. Including a book to keep track of my thoughts and prenatal appointment, a pacifier, a great selection of prenatal vitamins and tons of great informational sheets and magazines. I also got our first ultrasound on DVD. Yay!

I am slowly getting more and more excited but still preparing myself for the worst.

I am also thinking about picking up meditation. I have the hardest time relaxing and getting things off of my mind. I am hoping this will help with everything as far as my work life, my marriage, my personal life and relaxing during this pregnancy!

Well we did it again!

Yup, thats right we are pregnant.... again. Hopefully this time with a sticky baby!

When I woke up this AM and my temp had jumped .3 degrees Brett insisted that I test ASAP. Doing as any good wife would ;) I listened. At first I couldn't see the second line and for a split second was pretty bummed. Then the second line slowly started to appear. I played it off so well and said "I can't see anything" as I crawled back into bed. Brett took one look at the test and yelled " We did it!" and jumped on top of me while covering me in kisses. I responded with "good job babes" and gave him a high five. No lovely, romantic "we cried and held each other" story (that happened the first time) just a good old high five like he had just won a football game. I loved every second of it though.

We are both on cloud nine. It is such a great feeling! I will admit though that I am scared f'ing shitless. I am trying not to let the fear override the joy, but it is hard. Please stop and say a little prayer that this will be a sticky baby. :)

Here is the picture of the test (a little fuzzy but absolutely a positive) and my first belly shot haha yay for 4w1d belly shots :)